so, i suck

I can’t believe that I haven’t blogged since June. I don’t really know what to think about that. I guess that I just haven’t had anything to say. Or rather, like so many things in my life, I mean well… but….

I want to do this thing, I’m just not sure what my motives are. I like to write. I’ve just gotten really lazy about it. Of course I want readers, and that’s a small part of why I write online, but I really just like to write. I’m not sure what to write about. I don’t currently lead the most interesting of lives. I like my life, but how much of that do other people really want to read? There are some things that I would like to share, but can’t, for personal reasons.

I’m making this too complicated.

The whole writing thing- like I said, I’ve gotten really lazy about it. I decided a little over a week ago that every nite before I turned off the light, I would jot down a page or two in my journal. So far, so good. It’s nothing too serious, mostly about what we did that day, and I hope to start getting more into depth about what I feel and think, but because I’m so out of practice with putting pen to paper… well. Use it or lose it.

The children are all back in school, and so far, so good. This is Week Two, Day Two of the new year. Alpha is in seventh, Beta is in sixth, Cappa fifth, and Delta is in fourth. Alpha and Beta are in the same school and Cappa and Delta are still together; weird that next year, Delta will be on her own. Where did the time go? Seems like just a few months ago that I was welcoming the final addition of my crew into the world, this crazy haired baby that didn’t like anyone, not even me. And now she’s this whole entire person, growing up faster than I can blink.

Everything changes. Rarely does anything stay the same.

This year, I want to make some personal improvements in my life. First, the writing thing. That’s the whole journal and blogging and what-not… plus I’ve been kicking around this idea for a story, and I’m hoping that actually goes somewhere. Second, I want to get my house back under control. Over the summer I really, really let things go. It’s a cluttered mess most of the time. I finally got my bedroom in order, and now it actually LOOKS like a bedroom should. Just don’t open the closet… Third, I want to exercise. Yes, I would like to lose weight, and yes, I would still like to be a runner, but (go with me on the *but*) in my current, procrastination mind-set, those things are not really… happening. My plan is to start small… very, very small. Right now I’m taking my dog for a walk twice a day. The walks aren’t long, but they’re better than not walking. The next step (later in September) is getting my gym membership back on track and actually making that a priority. Baby steps… baby steps… Fourth, and this is kinda personal, I would really like to have more sex. With that guy I married. I mean, we have sex, but it’s not as… frequent… as I would like. That, and it feels more routine. Ok, on week nites, we have to get up early, we have thin walls… no swinging from the rafters, I totally understand why quality is down. But on weekends, or when he doesn’t have to work the next day? Hel-LO, opportunity! I just need to… instigate. And fifth, I would… well. Shit. I totally forgot what the fifth thing was. I kinda got stuck on four…

I’m sure it’ll come back to me.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that we got a dog. A little darling thing of furry love, a Chihuahua named Chiquita. She’s something of a “rescue”. See, my next door neighbor became too elderly to care for her anymore, and he very graciously let us take her. She is SUCH a little biscuit- sooo adorable. I am totally head over heels for this little doggy :) Here, look, you can see for yourself WHY-

Is that not the cutest little poochy face ever? Ok, I know I’m, like, completely biased here, but CAN YOU BLAME ME??

Well, looky there, at the time. I actually have to go and pick up the elder girls from their place of learning. And here I thought that this would only take a few minutes…

Later, gators.